I felt guilty (and just about to cry) just when I chatted with one of my close friends, Ysa. Here's the Convo.

In English (translated):

Spoiler:

Ysa (4/4/2008 7:51:21 PM): I'm so sorry. Ysa (4/4/2008 7:51:23 PM): Boggs (4/4/2008 7:51:33 PM): Really sorry you missed it. --I am reffering to the Swimming party we had yesterday-- Boggs (4/4/2008 7:51:39 PM): We really had fun... Ysa (4/4/2008 7:51:45 PM): I agree.. Ysa (4/4/2008 7:51:51 PM): Maemae got mad at me!! Boggs (4/4/2008 7:51:58 PM): It was our plan. Boggs (4/4/2008 7:52:00 PM): *laughing emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 7:52:04 PM): huh? Ysa (4/4/2008 7:52:10 PM): What plan? Boggs (4/4/2008 7:52:17 PM): Keep quiet, okay? Ysa (4/4/2008 7:52:23 PM): oK Boggs (4/4/2008 7:52:30 PM): We were supposed to tell the people who didn't attend what fun we had. Ysa (4/4/2008 7:52:39 PM): aHH.. Boggs (4/4/2008 7:52:49 PM): I'm still waiting for Jojo... --I was waiting for him cause he also didn't show up-- Ysa (4/4/2008 7:52:50 PM): A lot of people got mad at me! Ysa (4/4/2008 7:52:51 PM): *crying emote* Boggs (4/4/2008 7:53:00 PM): Aww... Ysa (4/4/2008 7:53:02 PM): Hahaha.. I told you he wouldn't come.. ---She is reffering to Carlo, one of my close friends and her Boyfriend-- Boggs (4/4/2008 7:53:25 PM): Is Carlo not coming the reason why you didn't come? Ysa (4/4/2008 7:54:05 PM): Who told you that? Boggs (4/4/2008 7:54:48 PM): You did... Boggs (4/4/2008 7:55:28 PM): Wait for a while. I'll just eat dinner. Ysa (4/4/2008 7:55:33 PM): okaay Ysa (4/4/2008 7:55:40 PM): Just Buzz me okay? Boggs (4/4/2008 7:55:43 PM): k. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:01:30 PM): Look, here it is.. The reason I didn't come is because Carlo wasn't coming. When I found out, I really didn't want to come. Plus, when I asked my dad again, he didn't let me go. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:04:55 PM): Ahh... Boggs (4/4/2008 8:05:03 PM): Poor you. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:05:09 PM): i know Ysa (4/4/2008 8:05:24 PM): Y'know, yesterday, I really cried hard.. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:05:30 PM): And the only person who comforted me was Carlo Boggs (4/4/2008 8:05:38 PM): Through text? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:05:46 PM): Yes. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:05:52 PM): He was very sweet. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:05:57 PM): He said that he wished he could hug me. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:06:05 PM): Oh? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:06:09 PM): He also said I should stop, or I wouldn't be beautiful. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:06:12 PM): *Loser Emote* Boggs (4/4/2008 8:06:16 PM): *Laughing Emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:06:17 PM): Oops, wrong emote! Ysa (4/4/2008 8:06:19 PM): Sorry Ysa (4/4/2008 8:06:22 PM): *laughing emote* Boggs (4/4/2008 8:06:24 PM): Nice *laughing emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:06:26 PM): But... Ysa (4/4/2008 8:06:51 PM): Really, a lot of people started calling me and telling me I missed a heck of a time. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:07:02 PM): But to tell you, it was really Carlo that was cheering me up! Boggs (4/4/2008 8:07:16 PM): Aww.. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:07:23 PM): *grinning emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:07:39 PM): Well, he said he was very excited to see me! Ysa (4/4/2008 8:07:41 PM): Hahaha! Boggs (4/4/2008 8:07:46 PM): When? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:07:54 PM): apRil 19 Ysa (4/4/2008 8:07:55 PM): at ATC -- ATC is a mall -- Boggs (4/4/2008 8:07:59 PM): Occasion? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:08:14 PM): Oh nothing, he just invited me to come with him. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:08:25 PM): *ahemm*Date... Ysa (4/4/2008 8:08:42 PM): *laughing emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:08:44 PM): Not really. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:09:00 PM): Are other people coming? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:09:03 PM): Well, James and some of his and my friends Boggs (4/4/2008 8:09:07 PM): Ah.. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:09:17 PM): But we'd see each other. Haha! Boggs (4/4/2008 8:09:17 PM): So that's what Kevin was talking about. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:09:24 PM): Huh? Boggs (4/4/2008 8:09:31 PM): Well, James invited Kevin to come along with them. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:09:34 PM): April 19. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:09:41 PM): Yeah, that's the one. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:09:41 PM): I saw his cel and saw that particular message. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:09:48 PM): ahh ok. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:11:43 PM): Just a question.. Why is it that only the three of us are on your status? -- My status was: Woo hoo! Ang saya! Sayang naman sa mga hindi nakapunta. *ahem*YsaCarloJojo*ahem!!* -- Ysa (4/4/2008 8:11:46 PM): Hahaha! Ysa (4/4/2008 8:11:52 PM): You even added 'ahem' in it Ysa (4/4/2008 8:11:54 PM): *tounge out emote* Boggs (4/4/2008 8:13:15 PM): Uh.. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:13:24 PM): Because I was expecting for you guys to come along. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:13:36 PM): It's because you guys are such good friends. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:13:41 PM): *winking emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:14:28 PM): You were expeting us? Boggs (4/4/2008 8:14:33 PM): Yah. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:14:37 PM): uhh.. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:14:41 PM): Thanks, Boggs. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:14:44 PM): Sorry again. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:14:52 PM): It's okay.. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:15:14 PM): You've had enough madness going on for one day Ysa (4/4/2008 8:15:15 PM): Aww.. I heard that you brought Palabok that day. -- Palabok is a Filipino food which has thick noodles and combined with some sort of sauce and with Eggs, Lettuce, and Squid as toppings. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:15:19 PM): Yah. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:15:28 PM): unga eh! -- She is reffering to: Boggs (4/4/2008 8:15:14 PM): You've had enough madness going on for one day Ysa (4/4/2008 8:15:30 PM): err! Boggs (4/4/2008 8:15:40 PM): We already had our Lunch at about 3 PM! Ysa (4/4/2008 8:15:46 PM): Hahaha! Boggs (4/4/2008 8:15:46 PM): We forgot!!! Ysa (4/4/2008 8:15:53 PM): Laugh Trip!! Ysa (4/4/2008 8:15:57 PM): It must've been fun! Ysa (4/4/2008 8:15:59 PM): Makes me regret not going. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:16:01 PM): Hahaha! Ysa (4/4/2008 8:16:55 PM): Nikki also got mad at me.. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:16:57 PM): Yesterday Boggs (4/4/2008 8:17:02 PM): *laughing emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:17:03 PM): But through text Ysa (4/4/2008 8:17:26 PM): Do you know that.. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:17:29 PM): All of them told me the same thing! Boggs (4/4/2008 8:17:39 PM): Wow... Ysa (4/4/2008 8:17:42 PM): About, "So, is it because Carlo wasn't coming that you didn't come?" Ysa (4/4/2008 8:17:45 PM): Really ticks me off.! Boggs (4/4/2008 8:18:02 PM): Well, that's what we were talking about in Mae-Mae's Car. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:18:04 PM): That night. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:18:24 PM): About me? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:18:30 PM): About Carlo? About us? Boggs (4/4/2008 8:18:40 PM): About how you changed because of your relationship with Carlo. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:19:08 PM): Could you tell me all about what you talked about? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:19:13 PM): Please. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:19:20 PM): Well, first of all, about how we think you didn't come because of Carlo not Coming Ysa (4/4/2008 8:19:31 PM): And.. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:19:33 PM): Second... Boggs (4/4/2008 8:19:53 PM): How you changed from Globe to Smart because Carlo was Smart... -- Globe and Smart are like those Cellphone things like Sprint and Nextel. -- Boggs (4/4/2008 8:20:01 PM): That was almost all. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:20:09 PM): ah.ok Ysa (4/4/2008 8:20:21 PM): Look. I feel like I'm about to Cry. What do you want me to do!?!?!?!?! Boggs (4/4/2008 8:20:32 PM): ... Boggs (4/4/2008 8:20:50 PM): *straight faced emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:20:58 PM): i'm serious Ysa (4/4/2008 8:21:11 PM): What do you want me to do!?!?!?!?!!!.. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:21:41 PM): Ask them. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:21:52 PM): What about you? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:22:02 PM): I need your opinion. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:22:09 PM): Even if it hurts Boggs (4/4/2008 8:22:10 PM): Waiit. I didn't start that.. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:22:39 PM): Aren't you mad or something? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:22:54 PM): I know, let's see it from this.. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:22:57 PM): *straight faced emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:23:02 PM): Did I change? Boggs (4/4/2008 8:23:18 PM): Yah. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:23:32 PM): See? Now you've got to have an opinion Ysa (4/4/2008 8:23:41 PM): Cause you think I changed. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:23:48 PM): *straight faced emote* Boggs (4/4/2008 8:24:11 PM): Waiit, Okay? I just need to brush my teeth... -- I go off and leave myself Idle -- Ysa (4/4/2008 8:24:18 PM): ok Ysa (4/4/2008 8:26:04 PM): Boggs, when you come back, I just want you to tell me everything you want to tell me. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:26:08 PM): Please.. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:26:35 PM): Don't worry about me, because I ain't gonna go Online and Text anyone or answer calls from anyone. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:29:46 PM): Do you want me to ignore Carlo? Do you want me to take a break from him? Do you want me to switch back to Globe? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:29:50 PM): teLL me!!! Ysa (4/4/2008 8:30:04 PM): Sorry if I'm like this.. -- I go back and read everything.. I feel guilty.. I change my status to "I feel really guilty *crying emote*". She notices it and... -- Ysa (4/4/2008 8:39:41 PM): hey Ysa (4/4/2008 8:39:42 PM): What's goin' on? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:39:58 PM): Why do you feel guilty? Boggs (4/4/2008 8:40:15 PM): Look, Ysa... I am not tellin' ya that there's something wrong with you and Carlo being in a relationship... It's their opinion. Ask them. Don't just throw it all on one person.. Thinking about answers to these questions just makes me feel guilty cuz I made you feel like this.. Just go on with your life.. If you need answers on that, ask the people responsible for their opinions. -- I get teary-eyed -- Boggs (4/4/2008 8:42:12 PM): By the way, I kinda noticed that you suddenly felt that way after hearing from me. I don't want to be the reason why wou aren't going to be online for some people who want to talk to you. -- A drop falls from my eye -- Ysa (4/4/2008 8:43:20 PM): Don't feel guilty. I just want them to think about it. Because I can't take it anymore.. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:43:53 PM): I know it's very hard for you to understand that I am not talking to you guys for a while Ysa (4/4/2008 8:44:00 PM): Not even through text.. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:45:41 PM): I also don't want to be the reason na nagtatanong ka na kung hindi kayo magkikita nila Carlo for such a time. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:46:33 PM): Look, Boggs. I am not mad at you. I actually am happy that you told me this. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:47:05 PM): You told me I changed.. That's just what I wanted to hear from you. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:47:15 PM): What changes? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:47:24 PM): Is it because of the Party? Ysa (4/4/2008 8:47:33 PM): Is it because I changed to smart? Boggs (4/4/2008 8:47:37 PM): But I didn't even start it. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:47:37 PM): C'mon Boggs, just answer. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:47:47 PM): Look, their opinions just came to my mind. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:50:03 PM): Read my status --She was refering to: Wag ka ma-guilty.. Okay nga na sinabi mo yun eh.. Oo nga pala.. Thanks (Meaning: Don't feel guilty. It's really nice that you told me that. Oh, by the way, Thanks. *smile* -- Ysa (4/4/2008 8:50:12 PM): Just don't feel guilty. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:50:21 PM): *smiling emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:50:26 PM): It's okay that I won't tlk to them for a while... Ysa (4/4/2008 8:50:40 PM): I just want them to realize something. Ysa (4/4/2008 8:50:57 PM): That they should understand me before they judge me. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:51:49 PM): *straight faced emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:52:31 PM): GTG. Bye, Boggs. This will be our last conversation for this time. Boggs (4/4/2008 8:52:37 PM): Ok... Boggs (4/4/2008 8:52:43 PM): Bye *crying emote* Ysa (4/4/2008 8:52:46 PM): Thanks again. Hope you understand Ysa (4/4/2008 8:52:48 PM): BYE Boggs (4/4/2008 8:52:53 PM): Bye. *sad emote*

I know I won't be able to sleep tonight. Comments are truly appreciated.

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So, shes sad because of "changes"... Boggs, do what she says, dont feel guilty. If you start to feel, it, take your mind off the subject. But, I dont fully understand the situation... So... Yeah.

Boggs I am in the same boat as you with one of my other friends.

Awww... Last Convo?? Oooh..that hurts.. And I even understand what was Boggs Stats that time..even though in its Filipino..(cuz I am) XD One opinion: Don't feel guilty..XD

Ozzeh